Doctor ELF: Dr Crush !

From my Diary in Medical life as a Doctor ,,

Dr Crush !!

In the days of studying medicine , despite the busy life of studying and work , our hearts still can find the chance to skip a beat and make us flutter !

I am writing about my longest crush ,, with my colleague in the same field . Starting with My Love by Westlife , a song that many can relate to in their love stories

The story started with my first days working as a new resident , it was my second Oncall .

That oncall was special to me because I was alone , covering the service on a holiday so obviously it was a busy day !

By the Afternoon , my pager started to ring , I was almost about to rest and take a nap , I did not even eat anything or drink water .. so honestly I hated hearing that bleep and and tiredly have answered that call , then got so annoyed about the situation and the one who was talking to me ! because he was not supposed to be the first one to see the patient but me as the case was simply a first onset seizure and I am the first call Neurologist and he is the first call Neurosurgeon , and usually these cases unless there is a clear reason for neurosurgery to be involved , the case has to be seen by a Neurologist first . What really got me annoyed that he was telling me the plan for the case that still I did not see !

Later on ; understanding the situation , that the patient is a VIP and his head asked him to see the case first then to call me , how he waited me in the ER and gave me a detailed explanation for everything in person , helping me in handling the case , finishing the needed preparation and answering the family questions , his well manners , all of that gave me a good impression about him!

Because of this case and the long wait in the ER we got to introduce ourselves to each other and chat a little bit and found that both of us have almost a same dream ! Actually I am a type of shy person , so I answered him more than asking questions ..

After that meeting , we got accidentally to meet each other and have almost same On call days !!

I remembered meeting him in most of my On calls and sometimes even he was not the on call in the Neurosurgery but he came to follow some of his post operative patients and we got to meet .

During those meetings , he would initiate the talks and asked me about my personal life and telling me about his / even if I did not ask about that . When I have to carry something he would take it and carry it for me .. Once he asked me about my plan in marriage and that was quite a surprise to me , hearing that from a male colleague whom I a barely got to know , Specially everything he was talking about , seemed so natural to do , and he would do it with a bright personality and humors .

Day by Day , I noticed myself having a strange feeling toward him , something not like those you would have for a comfortable friend , or for sure a colleague !

Because I was not certain about his true personality and feeling , I tried to avoid him as much as I can . By this time , there was a colleague of mine who was working with him in the same team , and while we were talking she told me many things about him , like he is known to be a strict ,very conservative person and a workaholic ! He also tried to reach me and took a silly like excuses to contact me , so I decided to keep being professional in my work and contact him carefully .

" break with westlife Amazing "

Hard days came by for both of us , first was me when doing some exams and he stood for that supported me , then it was his turn , I may could not be of so much support to him but I tried to do as much as I can and I prayed for his success .

For some personal circumstances , I had to leave that place and work on another city . It was difficult for me telling him that in person so I finished secretly everything and left the place . He contacted me after that and kept on touch with me once in a while and I was thankful for that till the day when he left to study abroad , we lost contact for more than a year maybe . Again he was the first to contact me later and asked me about how I am doing and if I got married ! and I found that he would contact me every time he would come home and visit his family !

For time being , I know that our career is way on the top of our priority list , plus I did not have a clear confession yet and I am not ready to do as well . So still I am preferring to be on the Friend zone and do not lose him as a comfortable colleague and not willing to make our relationship awkward as we may encounter each other a lot in the future due to our specialties .

But deep inside of my heart , I am so thankful for him for giving me so many special and precious memories on my 24th year of age !

Here I remember a scene from Reply / Answer me 1994 , the drama that I like as many of K drama fans .. where Najung said to Chilbong in the last episode :

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“Joon-ah, thank you for liking me. Because of you, my age twenty will be a beautiful memory.”

Do I miss him ? Do I think about him ?

Sure I do , the more I know about him , the more I know how well he matched me ! the more I became fascinated how we resemble each other , in our dreams , hobbies and interests ,

from the very simple thing like a favorite song or program to the major things in life as ultimate goals !!

What kind of person is he ?!!
Topper of his school , smart , Honest and hard working ,
not very social , does not have many friends .
He is not a good lier !
using the same nickname for most of his internet / social network !!
Has his own imagination about marriage , finding a soulmate , who would make her way to his life and let him know why it does not work with anyone else but her !
Believing in Horoscopes. ?!!
Interested in the social issues .
Looking up for Noble prize ..
Appreciating the Female Scientist of our country ..
Like to preserve the resources !
Like the fashion and the creative sense ..
Willing to learn cooking ..
Taking care of his family , mother and daughter ...
I believe he is kind of a patient and persistent person ..

Even if he became depressed he can make it through !

He Likes camping , travelling ( me too ^^ ) , and good in hunting !

But because I know that both of us strongly believe in fate , and what is meant to be will be .. So I am going to live my life strongly believing in that and praying for the best for both of us , either to be with each other or to find our soulmates and have blessed families with all the happiness that we deserve ..

PS; I like reply 1994 because Trash oppa was a Neurosurgeon too , so like Najung I would not mind to have such a proposal by him !